I am so freaking pissed right now.
I dun even know where and when to start talking about stuffs in this blog post.
Seriously.
Recognitions are not given to teachers and esp to Early Childhood educators.
One freaking good example is my mum.
Yes,
she was the one that agree for me to do early childhood.
and yet
she can tell me to just keep quiet even when i personally witness something unpleasant at this field.
like a seriously.
I freaking cannot understand.
I have my own stand and perceptions in this field.
Code of ethics was taught and instilled.
I know wad is going on and yet, I cant freaking say anything just cause I am not a full-time teacher there??
I mean seriously. I didnt even confronted the teacher straight in her face.
WHAT THE HELL IS MY MUM's PROBLEM!?
I dun freaking understand where's her brain.
she say that the child can say it out if its unpleasant wad.
like WTF?
the child is a special needs child.
the child cant even express his "DON'T WANTS" in to words.
and you expect a child to express "a_ _ _e" into words towards the parents?
she said i should keep quiet about it.
like how the hell?
its not a one-time occurence
and its several time already.
HOW TO KEEP QUIET ABOUT IT.
and because of wad has happen,
the child started hitting the other children.
AND YOU ARE TELLING ME,
THIS IS A FREAKING TEACHER's PROFESSIONALISM!!
OHMYTIAN.
sometimes, i think a teacher's professionalism really boils down to individual.
if you want tt recognition and respect,
you JOLLY WELL make sure you know how to get it and get it for YOURSELF.
seriously.
if you dun even advocate and believe in the things you do,
HOW THE EFFING HELL would you expect others to respect and recognise you for the things you do?!?
I cant and must not fall back on what happened in JC
I need to stay strong
I need to be optimistic
I need to think that life is gonna be ok after the storm.
I need to believe that God is guiding me through all the shits.
I need to remember all that statements above.
Dear Jessica,
Please remember all that.
Live your life regardless of what happened.
Remember the goal that you once had in mind.
Keep the passion burning.
Brave through the final lap in poly.
Keep praying to God
And believe that He will guide you through.
(PS. nothing is wrong at all, life is just being life)
And so i am back earlier than i thought
partly because i dun have much things do as for now..
but wadever the thing is,
i am back with another post!
and yes,
today had lectures and had a guest speaker.
he is so lovely till he got a ultra big cake so as to celebrate early childhood.
its sooooooo nice of him to encourage all of us.
and its rare to find someone who sees so much hope and passionate in this field of profession.
and so,
runningman just came out with EPISODE 100! :D
its sooooo..
undescribeable.
:)
ok.
so, term break ended.
back to school.
left with close to 1 month to the end of semester.
time really flies this semester.
super fast.
and so,
i pray for my health and strength till the end of semester! :)
and so, it has been 1 year and 1 month since i updated this blog.
its not that i forgot the existence of this blog
but i just hadnt had the time to update it.
and yes,
alot has happened recently.
there has been many sides of many stories.
people come and go, as and when they like.
well. there isnt much that I could do.
yes, i have been busy in accomplishing my passion.
and yes,
I am almost there with just less than a year,
I will be graduating.
Think back the days when I was in JC
those were the memories.
short memories in fact.
however, right now,
the days seemed to have passed by even faster than ever
maybe its due to the assignments and deadlines,
it could also be due to the weather.
Just couldnt have felt that slow pace in life.
sometimes, i really wonder..
as much as i am doing my passion,
would i still stay and feel the same for like the next 10 years of my life.
and yes,
I have been thinking my age.
going to reach 20.
sometimes, i also wonder..
when two person have different pathways in life,
does that mean that they ought to go on separate pathways?
or could they walk on the road of life with the accompaniment of each other.
on that very night,
when all kinds of shitz things happen to be during the day,
i am so frustrated, depressed, sad and all..
(almost like how i was back when i was in JC)
were you even there for me, just like how it was back in JC?
i was there for you, when you needed comfort.
but when i faced troubles and shitz stuffs,
where were you?
and yes, this is quite a long post.
i dun know if you will see this.
but,
i just want you to know.
i am not blaming for the decision made.
i am just upset and bothered about the promises you made.
because all that, those are just mere empty promises.
and so, i dun know when i will update with another post.
but till then,
to whoever that still visits this blog,
toodles~! :)
alright.. so i haven been updating my blog for like 1 month already. been kinda overwhelmed over stuffs.
so.. school has started. everything starts pouring in. assignments, lesson plans, ccas, pre-u seminar. practically, everything just sorts of overlap one another..
so.. the picture below depicts what i hope for. :D
saw this awesomely cute book on Hello Kitty while i was out with yiting, randy and constance. really cute book and was snapping away.
HEEE. so.. pre-u seminar multimedia presentation is done.. just hope that the 5 days quickly come. heard that we will be given each a room. there is no need to share room with others!
LOL. i mean tts beside the point. so, this time round.. the number of assignments are lesser than last sem. However, the percentage of each assignment is much more than the previous sem.
well. besides school stuffs, i have been watching shows as usual despite how busy my life is. have been catching MANNY, running man and others. HEEE there's this host in running man. WOOTS! that's him at the bottom.
however, when he is hosting that variety show he is always the muscular and power guy. But, when you listen to his song.. its like the total opposite! HEE! tt's why i like him out of the many host in tt show! :)
well. same thing again. i shall end the post with SHE's and Ella's pictures. so till the next time i blog again. enjoy the pics!
alright.. so the above pic totally depicts what i m lacking of and wad i need. so its already a month of me not updating this blog.. even though its the holidays.. i think its worse than school terms. it is so freaking tiring till i really cant stand it.
alright. so.. diploma plus program de first module is over. O-V-E-R! like finally. the lecturer was kinda ok i guess. very leniant.. hopefully results wont be that bad.
well. besides that, i have also finished work over at the childcare centre. work for like 1 month.. everyday is just eventful of things like vomits, germs and all.
oh. and results came out le. it wasnt that bad as i thought. hopefully i get to renew my scholarship for year 2. but i have some doubts cause the cca points criteria are not met even though i try to attend all kinds of events. but whatever, what comes along my way, i will accept it gracefully.
hmmm. apart from tt.. i guess as a member of the Pre-U seminar team.. i was more of like a statue cause like.. i dun know if wad i suggest or say is gonna be useful or not.. then dun dare to say. haix..
tired to the max for this holiday. oh and AGM for npstrings is coming up. and attending camp throughout the weekend.. i think i will pass out soon.
well. wadever.
to the last point of this post. ELLA came to SINGAPOREEEE for the Singapore Entertainment Awards! WOOTS!
so pictures again! :D
the 3 of them. ♥
several magazine covers of ELLA ♥!
Singapore Entertainment Awards - ELLA ♥!
sexy back worrrr! :D
so.. i shall update soon. and meanwhile ELLA de 美奇姐 shall accompany me!
alright.. so it has been quite some time since i last blogged. wanted to blog. but just dun really have the heart to do so. here's to the almost one month of post.
the past 1 month.. has been eventful i guess. finished up the last few assignments.. before exam week comes.
before the exam week, a post valentines day outing with charles and constance and watched black swan with them.
"Perfection is not always about control, its about letting go." -Black Swan
so.. during the study week. even though went to school everyday.. supposedly to study.. but, i did nothing of tt.
as everyone else knows.. i love to watch dramas. so i was busy watching the dramas instead of studying. haha. but the exam is quite alright though. should be able to do well bah. felt really good that everything is now over.
so.. school is out. year 1 of poly life is over. like finally.
now is the holidays and hehe ^^ came across few random pics. thought its really nice and decided to share it with you guys.
and this is the guy that i have been noticing in kpop. really cute looking and just plain adorable. ^^
here's lee kikwang for you:
ohhh. and i finished My Princess where Lee Kikwang acted in.
and of course a taiwan drama titled 幸福最晴天 sunny happiness.
hahaha.
thinking of other dramas to watch.
and of course,
since its the holidays,
i m out working with children again.
this time round
the childcare that i worked at
had friendly chinese teachers and a good cook.
the food there is just simply awesome.
better than any childcare food that i have eaten so far.
^^
but this time round,
my responsibilities as a part time teacher is pretty huge.
its like..
in the morning
i m in-charge of K1 and K2 children's english, maths and science lessons.
in the afternoon
i m in-charge of the N2's children english, maths and science lessons.
and just today..
i m in-charge of the morning assembly for all ages of children..
haha. and guess wad.
i picked all Hi-5 songs!
so..
the older children are really hard-to-handle..
not disciplined, loud, and super active.
practically had to scream at them to get them to listen to instructions.
however,
even though the younger children are the same as the older ones.
but they brought many joy to me as..
they are really cute looking. :D
here's a pair of twins Ken and Kederic
cute right? ^^
and everyday i requested them to give me a hug and a kiss!
HEHE! :P
so..
there's nothing much else left to talk abt.
but just results of year 1 semester 2 is gonna be out.
think it wont be that good.
and it might even pull down my GPA.
but who cares la.
oh.
and..
i think this holiday right now
would be pretty hectic for me too.
besides working,
i had to wait for diploma plus programme
TCP 2 day workshop
and TCP Pre-U seminar 2nd interview!
is still thinking if i should really go for the Pre-U sem if i got in through the 2nd interview..
cause its like 5 days residential thingy..
and i will miss out on school.
HOW?!
but on the other hand,
this event is really prestigious
and the chance is hard to come by.
haix.
dun know la.
i'll just leave everything to God.
If he wants me at the Pre-U sem, then so be it.
I'm sure He will bring me through the missed out lessons bah.
